"I Gotta Know"

I gotta know
If I give my heart to you
That everything you say is true
And everything you say you'll do you'll do

I gotta know
If I bare my soul right here
You'll never run or disappear
You'll hold me till the hours turn to years

And I gotta say
My heart has never been so sure
You've mended every piece that tore
And now my love's too strong to tear away

So I gotta know
If you feel the same my dear
Let's justify why we are here
Say the words that I long to hear...

'Cause I've been so strong for so long
I never needed anyone
But my strenght is wearing out my heart
So I'm letting my guard down
'Cause I feel like I've finally found somebody
But I gotta know

I gotta know
You'll still kiss away my tears
Even if they make no sense
Even if they put you on defense

I gotta know
Throught the times when it gets rough
That our love will be enough
And we'll never let it go

I know only time will tell
But I need to hear it anyway
'Cause now my love's too strong to tear away

nikka costa- someone for evryone.

Someone for Everyone - Nikka Costa




Where is my someone
Who'll always understand
The person who'll give everything
Just to take my hand
What if I never feel it
What if I never know
And what if it just gets easier
To spend this life alone

Rollin' with the punches
Hope my black and blue don't show
Put the bright in my eyes
So no one ever knows
How I feel on rainy days
Or what I'd do to have always
My hopes are almost suffocating
But inside I know there's...

Someone for everyone ooh
Someone for everyone

There's got to be more
Than just getting thru the day
But I don't want to settle
Just to numb the pain away
I'm holdin' out for everything
The obvious and in betweens
And some say pride lets heartache in
But inside I just know there's

so the start of my 09 spring break.

basically my parents TRIED to ground me for my break but i just laughed like yeah whatever ( they have jokes ).....

so i go to kyle's for Easter which wuss amazing, his whole family & culture of the different foods & suchh. we had a awesome day / night.
but the next morning kyle gets a call from my father saying that my whole family is looking for me and im considered a run away hahahahha.

MY MOM CALLLED THE POLICE ON ME.
because i left without telling her.

long story short, kyle get's threaten and takes me home. -_- haha

but as im still on this whack spring break of mine...
i find out that my Pasadena family, is some how connected to kyle.
like in a seriouus way! its such a small world when you find out your cousin is dating your boyfriend's sister. like WHT THE FUCC?!#@.

only a few of the girls

LADIESSSSSSSSSS.

Tion & Family.

This morning I sound like a 40 year old woman that has been smoking since she was 19.
The past 3 days have been filled with a lot of laughter, which was so needed.
I Still can't seem to get my mind off of you, as much as I really want you to not be there.
I feel like god punishes me with the drama I have to deal with, like I'm getting punished , so he Puts all the wrong people in my life.
I feel like it's because of my faults and wrong doings I'm forced to have to settle with what I have, instead of searching for something better?
At night when I lay in my bed and I know something isn't right, it's as if I'm drowning in my sorrows , all alone at times .
I can be in a room full of people and yet feel alone. Family & friends or not.

I feel like that's my punishment.

And all these thoughts are running thru my head on a sunny sunday morning
At the car wash waiting for my car to be done.
It's a state of mind I stay in constantly.
Always thinking of my faults, or imperfections

Although this is me, don't mistake it for an insecurity .